So I am here in AZ and I thought the sun and the pool would occupy my time...but that is far from the case. I got to the sweltering heat yesterday and yes I grew up here and have family here...but I don't remember it being this freaking hot!!! Maybe I have been spoiled by living in the OC for too long.
It didn't take me too long to get to Phoenix but to my Dads house in Chandler AKA Hell.... well that was a whole different story. My Dad is very funny...letting me know his schedule as if I plan on disturbing him during his morning rituals.....and what not. He of course went to bed early and I stayed up trying to hook my computers up to his internet....big fail!!! He knows nothing of his internet so I am still SOL using his computer at the moment. Its too bad because I have some pics of my mini road trip here and also the killer Monsoon there was and is going on right now.
As for the ex thing.....its getting better but I still think I am a huge piece of shit. Just can't get my head around if two people love each other deeply but drive each other nuts at the same time.....WTF does that mean?? I feel that is my karma for something in my past...somewhere along the way I screwed the pooch on love karma and now its mind fucking me in the worst way!!!
On a good note I saw my bestie (yes you Katie) today and her mom who I have known for years! 18 years to be exact but who is counting. She is fabulous as usual, happy and all put together and then I look at myself and think....where did I go so wrong? Again chalking it up to Love Karma. I was very excited to see her mom Sue....she is just a naturally healing person and already she made me feel better. She just says the right things in the right way to make the sadness dissipate for a few seconds at a time....and right now that is all I can ask for. A few seconds at a time then a few minuets...then days and sew on.
Katie's Mom gave me a number to a person/therapist to talk with....she is supposed to be more on the spiritual side and not the church side so I made a call as soon as I got in my car. Meeting with her on Friday so I will let ya all know what she said. I hope to have my internet up asap so I can post pics and everything.
All in all today was a good day....going to attempt the gym tomorrow hope I don't pass out from over heating!!!
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