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    I realize I need to go for some serious RnR....but I am fighting it big time. Its the end of an era for me, the end of a love I never knew or thought I could know...or even wanted to know for that matter.

    Not only am I waking up in the middle of the night feeling like the wind got knocked out of me.....its happening when I am awake now. It's like I lost something and searching for it in a panic.
    It's crazy because my head tells me it's time to move on but my heart is fighting it big time. Who even said "follow your heart" must have stayed in a bad relationship for far far too long. I guess there comes a point when you have to realize: no matter how much you love someone it doesn't mean you are meant to be......